Chapter 93: Mother Will Always Love Her Son

Translator: Dragon Boat Translation Editor: Dragon Boat Translation

“Gu Ziyu!” Gu Ci shouted sternly, holding his face in her hands. “Who am I?”

Gu Ziyu’s eyes were red, but there were no tears. His emotions were in turmoil, and he seemed frantic. Gu Ci held him in her arms, signaling to Lu Zhiyuan with her eyes. Lu Zhiyuan was utterly confused, not knowing what was happening, but he could sense that something was wrong with Gu Ziyu.

Gu Ci’s eyes urged him repeatedly, and Lu Zhiyuan could only leave, feeling a growing sense of astonishment.

So it turned out that the little crazy one had insisted on pretending to be a sweet and adorable child all these days. But why did he go mad because of one sentence? He was living perfectly fine.

Gu Ci cupped Gu Ziyu’s face, tears welling up in her eyes. Lu Zhiyuan had died, Lu Ze had died, and even she had died. How much had Gu Ziyu heard? Were those words of him being the family’s jinx, causing harm to everyone?

When she was still alive, Gu Chuyun kept whispering in Gu Ziyu’s ear, “You killed your father, that’s why your mother went mad. You’re the jinx of the family. If it wasn’t for Gu Ci carrying you, 1 hadn’t planned to kill Lu Zhiyuan.”

Those words were like a curse, repeated again and again in Gu Ziyu’s ears, in his dreams, as if it were a curse.

“Ziyu, Mom and Dad are still alive,” Gu Ci kissed Gu Ziyu’s eyes. “Close your eyes and hug Mom. Mom will protect you, no one will hurt you anymore.”

Gu Ziyu closed his eyes, his face pale. “It’s because I’m stubborn. I killed him and caused Mom’s death. It’s all my fault. It would’ve been better if I didn’t exist.”

Gu Ci’s heart felt like it was being sliced by a knife, but she futilely covered his ears. “Ziyu, you’re Mom and Dad’s precious treasure, not a jinx. No matter how many times, Mom won’t regret giving birth to you.”

“You don’t love me.” Gu Ziyu stubbornly bit his own finger, drawing blood. “You only love Dad.”

“No!” Gu Ci’s heart ached, tears streaming down her face. “Mom loves Ziyu too. Give Mom a chance, cough, cough…”

Gu Ci was already unwell, and the emotional turmoil caused her to cough incessantly. Gu Ziyu listened to the coughing fits coming from her as if he had returned to their past lives, the days when they relied on and tormented each other.

Expressionless, he took off his shirt, revealing the scars on his back. “Mom, hit me. Hit me, and you won’t feel uncomfortable anymore.”

Gu Ci covered her head, feeling the pain, unable to breathe properly. The psychological suffocation made it hard for her to catch her breath, her face turning pale. Gu Ziyu’s finger was still bleeding, and Gu Ci desperately tried to regulate her breathing.

After a while, she managed to regain her breath, pulled the blanket over Gu Ziyu, and he looked at her blankly. “Mom, aren’t you going to hit me?”

Gu Ci wiped away her tears, calmly retrieved a tube of sedative from the drawer, and injected it into Gu Ziyu’s skin. Gu Ziyu slowly closed his eyes.

In her drawer, she always kept some because she frequently had nightmares and needed the medication. It had become a dependency. Holding the drowsy Gu Ziyu, he continued muttering, “I didn’t kill him, I didn’t…”

“Be a good boy, Ziyu, just sleep.”

Gu Ziyu fell asleep in her arms, and Gu Ci dressed him, soothing him gently, hoping he would sleep peacefully. But her hopes were in vain; Gu Ziyu started having nightmares, and he didn’t know what he was dreaming about.

“Mom, it hurts… Don’t hit Ziyu, Mom… It hurts.”

Gu Ci’s heart was pierced with countless wounds, so she could only hold him silently. “Ziyu, it doesn’t hurt. Be good, Mom is holding you, don’t cry.”

“It hurts… Mom… Mom, where are you going? Don’t leave Ziyu behind, Mom… Why don’t you want me?”

“Mom… Don’t leave Ziyu behind. Come and hit Ziyu.”

“Mom…”

“Mom…”

Gu Ci’s tears fell onto Gu Ziyu’s face, and she desperately wiped them away, but the more she wiped, the more tears flowed. Gu Ziyu had cried out in pain before, but now he became numb. He took off his clothes, knelt in front of her, and no matter how much he was hurting, he never cried out in pain.

In his nightmare, Gu Ziyu slowly fell back asleep. Gu Ci regained her composure and took out the medical kit. She disinfected his fingers and put a band-aid on them. Gu Ci called the counselor to ask for a leave of absence, pretending to be ill and providing a hospital certificate.

Gu Ziyu slept until late at night before waking up. His emotions had calmed down a lot, but he still appeared somewhat gloomy. He obediently said, “Mom, I’m sorry for scaring you.”

“Darling, are you hungry?”

Gu Ziyu nodded, and his stomach rumbled in agreement. Gu Ci still felt a bit dazed. Her emotions had been tumultuous in the afternoon, and her high fever hadn’t subsided. Li Jiang ordered some takeout, and Gu Ci struggled to get up and heat it up. Gu Ziyu helped her lie down, and he went to heat up the food.

The mother and son silently had their meal, with Gu Ziyu not saying a word. Gu Ci picked out his favorite dishes for him, and he didn’t refuse. It was the most silent meal that Gu Ci and Gu Ziyu had since their rebirth.

After the meal, Gu Ziyu asked Gu Ci, “Did I scare Dad?”

“He has a big heart, you couldn’t scare him,” Gu Ci reassured Gu Ziyu. “Ziyu, there’s one thing you need to know. Mom loves you. You can confirm it again and again, as many times as you need.”

Gu Ziyu looked at her, his eyes shining.

Gu Ci said, “No matter how many times we start over, Mom would always choose to give birth to Ziyu. It was Mom’s first love, but also the first time she lost someone she deeply loved. Unable to bear the blow, she fell apart and it’s all Mom’s fault, unrelated to Ziyu. Dad died to protect us, it was his choice, and it has nothing to do with Ziyu. He protected you because he loved you. Mom was also a first-time mother and didn’t do well. She hurt Ziyu, but can you give Mom another chance?”

Under the moonlight, the girl’s eyes were pure and affectionate.

Gu Ziyu nodded, “Okay!”

Gu Ci chuckled and ruffled his hair. “After you came back to Mom, did Mom do well?”

Gu Ziyu nodded, “Yes!”

Gu Ci asked again, “Are you happy?”

Gu Ziyu nodded again, “Yes.”

Gu Ci said, “We have an unfinished bond as mother and son, so heaven gave us a chance to start over. Mom is still learning how to be a better mom to Ziyu, and Ziyu is very happy. Let go of what happened in the past life, when you feel troubled in your heart, talk to Mom about it. Don’t keep it all to yourself, okay?” “Okay!” Gu Ziyu obediently agreed, the moonlight reflecting on his face. “Do you really love Ziyu?”

“Of course!” Gu Ci smiled. “You can confirm it with me throughout your life, again and again.”

“Then between Dad and me, who do you love more?” Gu Ziyu asked a bit stubbornly.

Gu Ci contemplated for a while, and she told Gu Ziyu, “Dad and I share a love between a man and a woman, and you and I have a mother-son bond. I can’t lose Dad, and I can’t lose you. Loving you and protecting you is Mom’s instinct. In the previous life, Mom hurt you because… only by continuously hurting you, only when Mom went mad, could your life be saved. After Dad died, Gu Chuyun wanted to torment me, and she could only target you. By complying with her wishes, 1 could protect you..”

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