Cuicui the nurse, seeing that she had caught Nan Zhubin's attention, immediately added: "When she's at work, she's always so reckless... Often volunteering for night shifts or high-intensity shifts, and she hardly ever rests. Because of this, she's collapsed from exhaustion several times."

It seemed like Nan Zhubin had found a keyword: "Several times?"

Nurse Cuicui nodded: "Yeah, just like that, taking on heavy work without rest, and she eats very little, so she works and then collapses from exhaustion."

"But this kind of... it's unnecessary. It's not like it's some disaster relief operation, just daily work. By doing this, she makes things awkward for everyone. The leadership has talked to her many times, but she hasn't changed."

As she spoke, Nurse Cuicui's voice lowered: "Sometimes I overhear the leaders speculating if Li Lingling is doing it on purpose, just to appear hardworking so it might be easier for her to be promoted or recognized for excellence at the end of the year..."

"Besides, she treats the patients very well. Often, in situations where it's expressly prohibited to be too devoted to the patients, Li Lingling doesn't care. She often gets herself into trouble just to serve the patients."

"But I've heard that often, not long after treating the patients well, she quickly becomes irritable and argues with them. The leaders are all quite troubled by it."

Whether these words are indeed what "the leaders" say is questionable.

But clearly, Nurse Cuicui felt that Nan Zhubin's curiosity about Li Lingling stemmed from her brave act of taking the knife during a medical disturbance.

So now, she started overtly and covertly deconstructing Li Lingling's behavior in a manner completely opposite to Nan Zhubin's perception.

However, her narration provided Nan Zhubin with much more information that he needed.

Compared to the short nurse, this Cuicui nurse was truly a treasure trove. Like a gold mine, where every swing yields results.

No, comparing to a "gold mine" isn't appropriate — it should be likened to an "oil well."

After a tentative dig, the other party seemed to continuously produce information.

Theoretically, under such conversational circumstances, if one wants to know more, further stimulating the other person's willingness to talk, simply agreeing with them is enough.

If the topic involves people they dislike, by agreeing with their views or even joining in the criticism, one can quickly become friends in the moment and keep the conversation going.

But—

Nan Zhubin thought for a moment, involuntarily leaned back slightly, and said, "… Really?"

Nurse Cuicui's expression froze, and she laughed dryly.

The distance she had just shortened by leaning forward toward Nan Zhubin involuntarily retreated two steps.

But the next moment, as if spurred by some competitive desire, she puffed out her chest again, seemingly ready to make one last attempt.

"Teacher Nan is very curious about Lingling. But I've also heard..."

...

After a while, Nan Zhubin left the nurse's station and found a less crowded place to ponder in silence.

The last things Nurse Cuicui said weren't anything new, mainly about Li Lingling's personal relationships.

The specifics were similar to the information Bai Qinghua had gathered from hospital leadership, which was mainly about how Li Lingling frequently changed boyfriends, who were often in their thirties or even forties.

However, unlike the more restrained and vague expressions when speaking to the leadership, Nurse Cuicui, although adding a layer of "heard of," disclosed many more details, even vividly so.

From this perspective, she was agitated.

After all, when she mentioned that Li Lingling was "sometimes energetic and sometimes downcast, ultimately full of negative energy," she used "she's very complicated" as a form of respect; when talking about Li Lingling "deliberately exhausting herself to show off" and "arguing with patients," she used the leaders' words to cover.

But when it came to this part, she expressed unmasked malice.

However, none of this counted much for Nan Zhubin.

After listening to the narration, he turned and left, while in his mind began an analysis one item at a time.

The things the short nurse said initially about Li Lingling aligned with the trait of [unstable interpersonal relationships].

The first point Nurse Cuicui mentioned—Li Lingling sometimes says she's a "white-clad angel," a "patient's hope," and at other times says she's "worthless," "unfit to treat patients." This reveals Li Lingling's extremely unstable self-perception.

Or rather, it's [confused self-cognition].

Li Lingling doesn't have a stable, firm understanding of herself, unsure of what her "role" truly is.

This would lead to her not having stable, practiced responses when facing life.

An individual with a strong sense of self-awareness is like a [Steel-type] Pokémon in Pokémon, possessing strong resistance and a wide range of attacks.

In contrast, someone with shaky self-awareness is akin to a Pokémon with composite attributes, where everything can happen under an arrangement of freely combined properties. With luck, one might even piece together a strong [Normal + Ghost] attribute.

But if unlucky, rolling a [Rock + Dark] or even [Grass + Bug], then things become dire. The limited attack scope is like a sewer pipe, and one can often be hit with four times the damage, making the experience akin to being imprisoned.

Li Lingling's self-awareness at the moment belongs to the latter, and clearly, this confusing self-awareness has led to a very poor life experience for her.

That's the first point.

The second point is about Li Lingling often collapsing in daily tasks without urgent necessity, and disregarding regulations to be overly kind to patients.

One should know that the reason hospitals limit extra-occupational help from doctors or nurses to patients is fundamentally the same as why psychological consultants are prohibited from intervening in the lives of visitors.

——Both are for self-protection. Hospitals protect doctors and nurses; psychological centers protect consultants.

In modern society, "The Farmer and the Viper" is never just a fable story.

If Li Lingling initially did this, it could be understood as kind-hearted and faith-driven; but later, ignoring the hospital's advice, even after several discussions with the leadership, and still refusing to change...

This aligns with the characteristic of [self-harm inclination across multiple domains].

In this context, Nurse Cuicui's thought that Li Lingling "exhausted herself to show off" isn't entirely wrong, except that Li Lingling's "intentional" purpose wasn't about performing for someone, but simply "wanting to collapse" on purpose.

"So my judgment of her is correct," Nan Zhubin sighed, "When she attempted to take the knife during the medical disturbance, it was genuinely a deliberate act of wanting to be injured by the knife; at times she even reminisces about the experience of being hurt..."

As for Li Lingling's shifting attitude towards patients, it can be explained by [emotional instability] or [unstable interpersonal relationships].

Dating many people is also characteristic of [unstable intimate relationships].

Combining the descriptions from the short nurse and Nurse Cuicui, Li Lingling's early-stage social efforts at "helping others complete tasks" and "teaching whatever others don't know," as well as "being extremely kind to patients," can also be seen as "over-investment."

And [Borderline Personality Disorder]'s "over-investment" is often driven by [fear of abandonment].

Of course, [fear of abandonment] is a subjective feeling, and deducing from the objective behavior of visitors is not entirely rigorous; to confirm it more, other nurses' perspectives would be needed for more detail.

Meanwhile, although Nurse Cuicui shared a lot, her narrative contained many subjective factors. The obtained information also needs to be further validated.

Nan Zhubin looked at the bustling hall of nurses, composed himself, and once again, smiled.

...

Another half hour passed.

Chonghui emerged from the consultation room with a certain "the world has changed" daze typical of visitors, but compared to the visitors' heavy thoughts, Chonghui's face was purer at that moment.

"Oh? Junior?" Chonghui turned and saw Nan Zhubin already waiting outside.

"Senior Brother." Nan Zhubin stood up, just about to say something.

Chonghui, with a lazy expression, raised his hand: "Wait, don't start on business yet, let me enjoy the aftertaste a bit more..."

Nan Zhubin blinked.

The corridor was silent for about five breaths.

Then Chonghui shivered, as if he was shaking his thoughts back into place.

He put on a serious expression: "Junior Brother, have you finished your work?"

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