Gilded Ashes: When Shadows Reign

Chapter 214: My Life.


Silence engulfed the room.

Not the normal kind - not the polite pause after a heavy statement. This was the kind that made the lantern flames feel too bright, the breaths feel too loud, and the wooden walls feel too close.

Anathema.

Raizen had heard the word in stories and briefing before. In the way veterans and Vanguards spat it out like a curse. In the way Solomon never used it unless he had to.

But hearing it here, in this small room full of photos and memories, made it feel wrong.

Atman didn't speak.

He didn't laugh, or argue, or try to soften it with warmth. His mouth didn't even try to open and say something, like he has done before.

His knees buckled a fraction, and he stumbled into the nearest chair as if his body had suddenly remembered gravity.

The wood creaked under him.

The smoke around his forearm tightened once, then thinned completely - like it didn't know whether to defend the room or flee.

Elin stood very still.

Too still.

Her earlier panic was still in her eyes, but the fear had shifted shape. It wasn't only the fear of being exposed anymore.

It was the fear of realizing she had been standing beside a cliff for years and never seen it.

Raizen felt his own throat go dry.

He glanced at the photos again, the Beast Sovereign's wild grin in the pretty frame. Then back to the old man in the bed.

Ukai's Ruler lay there looking calm, almost gentle, like he hadn't just admitted to shaking hands with something inhuman.

But he just waited.

Raizen finally managed a sound.

"A deal" he said, voice barely above a whisper. "With an Anathema…?"

The Ruler nodded, slowly.

"Yes."

Atman's fingers dug into the chair arms. His knuckles went pale.

"You're joking" Atman tried again, and the words came out wrong because the idea was too big to fit in a human mouth. "My Ruler, if that's true then - then Ukai has been-"

"Ukai has been alive" the Ruler finished quietly.

The Ruler exhaled, and Raizen caught the small strain in it now, the way even breath cost him something.

"After Velarion fell" the Ruler said, "the world was still screaming. More cities were broken. The trade routes were ash. People were starving with weapons in their hands, trying to pretend hunger was not a kind of war."

His gaze drifted over the photos.

"Ukai survived the fall" he continued, "but only barely. At least we were safe in the trees. Nyxes could not reach us easily. But safety isn't food. Safety isn't medicine. Safety isn't warmth when the winter comes and the soil is thin."

Elin swallowed. Her eyes stayed on him, sharp, like she was forcing herself to keep listening even if the truth burned.

The Ruler's voice remained steady. Almost soft.

"And then we learned something else" he said. "Something that the survivors of Velarion didn't like to discuss. In that war, we killed more than monsters."

Raizen felt a cold prickle at the back of his neck.

"We know the names of some Anathemas the Phalanx managed to kill." the Ruler said. "Greed. Selfishness. Things that the human mind can wrap around because they sound like sins, and sins feel... Strangely familiar."

His eyes narrowed slightly.

"But there was another" he went on, "and even the victors avoided the details. Not because they were ashamed. Because they were afraid."

He paused, and in the pause Raizen heard the faint hiss of lantern flame and the distant muffled wind outside, pressed down by Atman's cloud.

"Ignorance" the Ruler said.

Raizen didn't know what he expected when an Anathema was named. A roar, a tremor, some instinctive terror in his bones. He has never seen one. He just saw the curses and deaths they were bringing with them.

Instead, he felt something subtler.

A pressure behind thought.

Like the moment before you realize you've forgotten something important - except you couldn't remember what you forgot. Or when you forgot it, or why it mattered.

Elin's mouth tightened.

"That's…" she started, then stopped. Her voice came out thin. "Ignorance was defeated."

The Ruler nodded.

"Yes. It was."

He looked at her, and his eyes were clearer now than ever.

"It was defeated" he repeated, "But not killed, or destroyed. Not in the way people like to imagine. Not cleanly. Not safely."

Atman's fingers trembled once on the chair arm.

"A... A fracture" Atman whispered. "You mean there is still a fracture left."

The Ruler's expression didn't change, but Raizen saw it - a faint tightening at the corners of his eyes. Like remembering a thing you survived doesn't mean you want to visit it again.

"A fracture, indeed." the Ruler agreed. "A remnant. Wounded, dormant, small compared to what it once was."

He let the words settle, then added, very quietly:

"But still enough to wipe out a city if it woke hungry."

Atman made a broken sound, half laugh and half panic.

Raizen's mind flashed to the gray basin outside Elin's cave - life paused and emptied. To the thick cloud choking Ukai's sky. To the way his senses dulled when they entered it.

He didn't know if any of it was connected.

But suddenly, he didn't like how well those images fit together.

The Ruler continued.

He shifted slightly against the pillows. The movement looked small, but it pulled a tight breath out of him, and Atman flinched like he wanted to stand up and stop him.

The Ruler lifted a hand, a small gesture that said: "Let me speak."

"I didn't know what to do" the Ruler said. "Neoshima had its Council. Other cities had their committees, their corruption and their politics. Ukai had only hunger, branches and the sky."

His eyes went to Elin.

"And at that time, we had the Beast Sovereign" he added.

Elin's gaze hardened.

"She had power" the Ruler said evenly, "but she didn't have the right kind of mind for this problem. She saw everything through the lens of control. Chains. Tools."

Elin's jaw tightened, but she chose not to speak.

"So I made the decision myself" the Ruler continued. "I chose not to send it away. Not to hide it in some other nation's lap. Not to pretend it wasn't our responsibility."

Atman swallowed hard.

"My Ruler…" he began, then stopped. Even he couldn't find a respectful way to say "are you insane!?"

The Ruler's voice stayed calm.

"So I made a deal" he said.

Raizen's hand twitched at his side.

His mind flashed to Elin's handshake. The faint red particles. The sensation that his promise had weight, not because of honor - because of consequence. An Eon-binding Deal.

He understood now.

Those were the same kind of rules.

Just darker here. Far darker.

"What deal?" Elin asked.

Her voice was controlled, but it wasn't her usual mockery. It was the voice of someone trying to keep her hands from trembling.

The Ruler's eyes softened slightly.

"A deal built on trust and sealed by a price."

Atman stared at him, horrified.

"You… Trusted an Anathema!?" Atman asked.

The Ruler's mouth curved into the faintest smile.

"No" he said. "I trusted myself to pay."

Atman went very still.

Elin's breath slowed down, like she was forcing air into her lungs one measured pull at a time.

Raizen listened, every part of him quiet.

"I offered it containment" he said. "A sealed place. A human anchor. A living prison."

Atman's eyes widened.

Elin's pupils tightened.

"And in return" the Ruler went on, "it didn't exit its dormant state. It didn't spread."

His gaze slid toward Atman's forearm, where the last traces of black smoke still curled faintly.

"Ukai, and the whole world actually, was allowed to breathe" the Ruler said.

A long moment passed.

Elin's voice came out low.

"And the price."

The Ruler's eyes returned to her.

"My life" he said simply.

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