Chapter 272: Chapter 272: Qin Shuang’s Lack of Confidence

"No wonder the sister-in-law wants to leave. I would find it unbearable too." Qin Shuang finally understood, and after realizing it, she further understood why her sister-in-law would increasingly become quieter.

Having a mother-in-law who won’t listen to her, constantly picking at her mistakes, belittling her to the point of nothingness, it’s suffocating.

"I hope I don’t end up like her after I get married? If so, I’d rather not get married!" Standing from her sister-in-law’s perspective, Qin Shuang felt her very breath suffocate.

"Marriage is like using one’s second half of life as a wager. If you bet right, even if life is hard, it can be happy. Bet wrong, and feasting on delicacies becomes bitter." Fu Xiaoxiao looked at Qin Shuang, for the wisdom of marriage was something she had only just begun to learn.

Looking at it now, she had staked her second half of life on Lu Feng and she had bet right.

Even if he doesn’t have much money, his attentiveness, the protection from the two children, obedient and good-natured, she feels her days are very happy.

Although it might not be considered as living lavishly in others’ eyes, with many assets.

But this happiness is something money can’t buy.

"I really envy your life, you don’t have in-laws, your two kids are so sensible and obedient, plus your husband, who treats you so thoughtfully. I feel that’s enough." Qin Shuang looked at Fu Xiaoxiao, believing she lived very transparently.

"Moreover, I don’t think you’ve done nothing, the way you treat your children is something my family could never achieve." Qin Shuang chuckled, just like how Fu Xiaoxiao opened a hole in the roof because of something her two children said, not many people can do that.

"You wouldn’t know, opening that hole in the roof, it’s gossiped all over our courtyard. So many kids want to see this roof, and behind the scenes, many adults criticize you for spoiling the kids too much, how could you just open the roof just to see stars? Can’t they see it in the courtyard?" Qin Shuang mimicked those people talking, making Fu Xiaoxiao laugh.

"The main thing was the kids wanted it so much, and I felt it was no big deal, wouldn’t it be nice for a child to have a happier childhood?" Fu Xiaoxiao replied with a smile.

"You’re the best!" Qin Shuang showed Fu Xiaoxiao a thumbs up. "I hope I can become a mom and do it like you."

"I believe you would be a very good mother too." Fu Xiaoxiao looked at Qin Shuang, she was able to sense the issues at home, which proves she was thinking. When she becomes a mother, she would think the same.

"Hey, let’s not talk about that yet. I don’t even know where my partner is!" Qin Shuang felt very relaxed being with Fu Xiaoxiao, unlike how she would with Zhao Shishi and the others, she wouldn’t say things like this.

"You must have no shortage of admirers, right?" Fu Xiaoxiao asked curiously.

"Do you think they’re interested in the family background behind me, or in me as a person?" Qin Shuang sighed deeply. "Most men pursuing me are looking at what my dad and brother can offer. None of them care about me, Qin Shuang as a person."

"Who asks all about my dad and brother on the first meeting? I say I want an ice pop, they tell me ice pops hurt the teeth." Qin Shuang remembered those peculiar men at her previous matchmaking events and couldn’t help but complain.

She was filled with grievances.

"Take your time finding someone! Don’t marry just for the sake of marriage. You have the looks, background, and a good temperament, there’s no need to wrong yourself for others." Fu Xiaoxiao reckoned marrying Lu Feng was certainly a leap in the dark, as she had no other options at the time.

But Qin Shuang is different from her. She’s a courtyard child, with family background and standing. Her father holds an important office, her brother also holds a key position in the military, she essentially needs not worry about anything, only focusing on herself.

"With your words, I’ll surely not wrong myself." Qin Shuang had always seen herself as lacking ability. Hearing what Fu Xiaoxiao said boosted her confidence. "I always thought I’d amounted to nothing, while my brother studied letters since childhood, I couldn’t learn anything from childhood to adulthood, felt useless."

"My mom said my only value was to find a good family to marry into, get married and have kids." Qin Shuang hung her head, eyes darkening, experiencing firsthand her mother’s rejection, the most lethal of blows.

"You are wonderful, you have lots of advantages, don’t belittle yourself. From what I’ve known you, apart from being a bit pampered, your personality is good, appearance is decent, your background isn’t lacking, you have reasons to be proud, you should believe in yourself more."

Fu Xiaoxiao knew this self-doubt from prolonged suppression by Mrs. Qin.

Clearly having such good conditions, yet due to a lack of confidence, feeling inferior.

"Listening to you, I really may not be that bad!" Qin Shuang looked at Fu Xiaoxiao, her words always had a magical effect.

"You’re certainly not bad! Look how many can be like you, your mother’s understanding barely covers these three acres, she’s trapped here, thus teaching you is only about this courtyard. But you can obviously have a better life, with more choices, instead of waiting to be chosen." Fu Xiaoxiao patted Qin Shuang.

Qin Shuang’s eyes gleamed with tears, never had anyone so affirmed her, telling her she’s not inferior to anyone.

"I want to be friends with you for life, to be good sisters." Qin Shuang hugged Fu Xiaoxiao, choked up.

"Xiao Xiao! I came to play with you!" Wu Yingying rushed in cheerfully, only to see Qin Shuang hugging Fu Xiaoxiao. Their state made Wu Yingying stop in her tracks.

"Uh... you guys... uh... am I interrupting?" Wu Yingying awkwardly stood, unsure whether to advance or retreat.

"Cough, it’s okay." Fu Xiaoxiao couldn’t hold her laughter.

Qin Shuang quickly let go of Fu Xiaoxiao, her face red.

"You’re Sister Yingying." Qin Shuang lifted her head towards Wu Yingying, pondering, somewhat uncertain.

"You’re little Shuangshuang?" Wu Yingying looked at Qin Shuang, stepped forward with a smile.

"You know each other?" Fu Xiaoxiao asked with a laugh.

"All in the same courtyard, we surely know each other! It’s just that they were younger than me, and after my mishap, I didn’t come out for any socializing." Wu Yingying explained with a smile.

"Sister Yingying used to take really good care of me, taking me everywhere to play, but then she disappeared. I wanted to find her, but my mom wouldn’t allow it, refused to let me search for her." Qin Shuang looked at Wu Yingying, unaware of what happened to Wu Yingying, every attempt to seek her out was thwarted by her mom.

Since then, hasn’t seen her.

"A man duped me." Wu Yingying faced Qin Shuang, knowing any friend welcomed by Fu Xiaoxiao would naturally be her friend too.

Moreover, she held quite a good impression of little Shuangshuang.

"Ah?" Qin Shuang looked up in shock.

"Just as you think, I met a man, he treated me very well, then when we were about to marry, I found out he had affairs with other women. I shut myself up, felt ashamed to the family and nearly didn’t pull through and wanted to end myself."

Wu Yingying recounted her experience with a smile.

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