Lin Nan actually had a lot of experience living alone.
Whether it was living at her grandfather's or maternal grandfather's house during elementary school, or living in rental apartments her family rented after middle school, Lin Nan had lived alone for almost most of her eighteen years. But in all this time, she had rarely felt as anxious as she did now.
Perhaps because her parents weren't by her side since childhood, she was already someone who lacked a sense of security. After encountering Lilith, the panic of bodily changes, the anxiety of becoming female, plus various economic, lifestyle, and family pressures all came crashing down on her shoulders, making her unable to breathe and extremely lacking in security.
In the unfamiliar rental apartment, Lin Nan tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep. Some tiny sounds came from unknown sources, and when they reached the ears of the nervous Lin Nan, those sounds seemed amplified, always able to startle her awake just as she was drowsily entering light sleep.
When she was about to fall asleep again, she suddenly heard footsteps in the corridor outside.
It was clearly just a subtle movement, but it seemed to explode in her mind, as if someone was heavily stomping by her ear, scaring her into suddenly hugging Cola beside her.
Cola, who was sleeping drowsily, was also startled awake by her, looking up at Lin Nan in confusion, then suddenly bristling.
You're not also a perverted lesbian, are you!
But she didn't dare move around either, afraid of being taken by Lin Nan to be neutered. She could only sigh and resignedly stay obediently in Lin Nan's arms.
Just wait until I get rid of this body! Heh heh...
However, before long, Lilith noticed Lin Nan's slight trembling. She wanted to look at Lin Nan's face in confusion, but because she was being held in her arms, she could only see a delicate chin.
A moment later, knocking sounds came from the door.
Lin Nan shuddered again, then tremblingly got up from bed. She scanned the room and without hesitation grabbed the broom, then tiptoed to the living room.
"Who?!" she asked sternly.
"It's me, Chen Yao."
Hearing the familiar voice, Lin Nan completely relaxed, breathing a long sigh of relief. She put the broom aside and muttered dissatisfiedly: "What are you doing coming here so late at night?"
She first looked through the peephole on the door to confirm it was indeed Chen Yao before opening the door.
Chen Yao was still wearing the same clothes from the day, but his eyelids were drooping a bit, looking somewhat tired.
He entered the room, casually taking off his jacket and handing it to Lin Nan. He unconsciously glanced at Lin Nan, who was only wearing shorts and a short-sleeved shirt as pajamas. His eyelid twitched, and he suddenly felt maybe he shouldn't have come.
How long had it been? It seemed to have gotten bigger again? The originally loose short-sleeved shirt was obviously ill-fitting after Lin Nan's figure became increasingly petite. The hem covered her hips, almost concealing the shorts, making her look like a little girl stealing her father's clothes, or like she was wearing a short dress.
"What are you here for?"
Lin Nan didn't notice Chen Yao's gaze and casually threw the jacket onto the sofa.
"Aren't I worried you wouldn't be used to living outside on your first day?"
"I was almost asleep, you scared me." Lin Nan complained, feeling some warmth in her heart, but her face was full of disdain. "What does it matter to you if I'm not used to living here? Go back where you came from."
Chen Yao plopped down on the sofa, looking cheerfully at Lin Nan's disgusted expression: "I'll just sleep on the sofa tonight. I climbed over the wall to get out, so you can't make me climb back, right?"
"Tch, whatever."
Lin Nan came to her senses, yawning as she headed for the bedroom: "I'm going to sleep."
"Go ahead."
Returning to the bedroom, she closed the door behind her. The previously dissatisfied expression on her face instantly turned into a smile, then she turned off the lights, hugged the cat, and lay comfortably on the bed.
Perhaps it was the sense of security Chen Yao brought her. Lin Nan, who had been emotionally tense and mentally sensitive just ten minutes ago, instantly felt much more comfortable. Lying on the bed, those tiny sounds, the barking outside the window, and the occasional footsteps in the corridor all seemed unable to affect her anymore.
In just a few minutes, she fell into deep sleep, sleeping until morning sunlight entered the room and she drowsily woke up.
Last night's sleep was quite good.
At least in a new environment, she surprisingly didn't wake up in the middle of the night.
Opening the bedroom door, Chen Yao was already awake and sitting on the sofa. Milk and meat buns were already laid out on the coffee table.
"You eat first, I'm going to use the bathroom." Seeing Lin Nan come out, he hurriedly got up and headed toward the bedroom, complaining: "What kind of design is this? The bathroom is actually in your bedroom, and you locked the door last night. You made me hold it for ages."
Lin Nan yawned several times in succession, drowsily rubbing her eyes and looking at Chen Yao's figure.
Wait, why is Chen Yao here... oh right, he came last night...
Morning grouchiness plus the confusion from when Chen Yao arrived last night when Lin Nan was sleepy made her almost forget why Chen Yao was staying in her rental apartment.
But she quickly came to her senses, picking up the breakfast on the coffee table. While eating, she looked toward the bedroom door.
Shortly after the sound of flushing, Chen Yao came out looking tired. He apparently hadn't slept well last night.
"Why did you insist on coming here last night?" Lin Nan asked again.
"I already said I was worried you wouldn't be used to living here. Were you too confused last night to remember?" Chen Yao had some dark circles under his eyes. He sat next to Lin Nan. This sofa was quite small, and although neither of them was fat, it still seemed a bit crowded.
He uncomfortably tried to move outward, but just as he moved a little, Lin Nan suddenly leaned closer.
Looking up, this guy was staring at him with big eyes still carrying some sleepiness, hands propped on his thighs, slightly leaning forward, eyes fixed directly on him. Her face seemed to be leaning a bit too close, causing that familiar milky fragrance to start swirling around his nose.
Chen Yao's body stiffened, and he naturally started reacting.
"You don't like me, do you?" After staring for a moment, Lin Nan finally sat back honestly, snorting: "I've never seen you care about me this much before."
Perhaps because she had become female, Lin Nan's psychology was gradually beginning to change, quickly noticing clues she couldn't detect before.
"No matter how much you cared about me before, you would never directly come to my place like this, right? At most you'd send a text to ask about the situation." She viciously bit into the meat bun, feeling very annoyed, her gaze full of suspicion. "I treat you like a brother, but you..."
This girl must have something wrong with her head, right?
Chen Yao naturally denied it: "This is just natural concern between brothers!"
He was just afraid that if Zheng Qian came over in the middle of the night...
It would be more convincing if he wasn't pitching a tent.
Lin Nan glanced at his crotch. Having been a man before, Lin Nan naturally knew this was a normal reaction for men in the morning, but seeing Chen Yao sheepishly covering his legs with his jacket, she became even more suspicious.
Although she had to admit Chen Yao had always taken good care of her, he had never cared to this extent before.
For example, before National Day, when she had just learned from the physical exam that she had female organs inside and could never go back to being a man, when she had that lifeless expression, Chen Yao had only expressed concern verbally before happily running off to attend a wedding. Only after the wedding ended and he had free time did he come back to see her.
But last night, his behavior seemed a bit too enthusiastic?
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