Chapter 358: Chapter 358: Thoughts

Fortunately, he ultimately reined in those thoughts of his and didn’t make a move.

Otherwise, it would have been a shame; she would have had to temporarily lose a little partner.

But as regrettable as it would have been, she wouldn’t have regretted it if it had come to that.

Of course, since he hadn’t done anything in the end, she naturally wouldn’t do anything to him.

It was normal to have such thoughts. After all, no one wanted to be controlled by others; it was a perfectly natural impulse.

But if he had actually gone through with it, that would have been a different story entirely.

"What’s wrong? Why are you looking at me like that?"

Andrew Shaw looked at Stella Sterling in confusion, not understanding why her gaze made his skin crawl.

For a moment, it felt as if he had been targeted by something. It was terrifying—more terrifying than ever before.

’Could she have sensed my intentions from just now?’

’Or did I do something that made her notice something was off?’

But after thinking it over, he couldn’t help but shake his head. For a split second, he had indeed entertained other thoughts.

But it had only been a thought. He hadn’t made any move, so logically, she shouldn’t have been able to sense anything.

But beyond that, he couldn’t understand it. Her gaze had been perfectly normal before, but the moment he turned to leave, it had changed completely.

He couldn’t think of any other reason.

Andrew Shaw’s expression was perfectly composed, but his heart was pounding with anxiety.

He was completely uncertain if she had discovered something.

Now he was starting to regret his hesitation. ’Why did I have to waver just now?’

’There has to be a reason for this sudden change in her. It couldn’t have just happened for no reason.’

’The only thing that happened in that short period of time was my brief lapse. Nothing else occurred.’

’Was I out of my mind? To actually think about getting away from her...’

’What’s so bad about sticking with this woman? I get to eat and drink well.’

’It’s not like I had any freedom when I was with those parents of mine, either.’

’They were weak and useless, constantly doubting me. Even though they relied on me for all those years, they were always ready to abandon me at a moment’s notice.’

’And even with someone as capable as me assisting them, they were so weak that we missed countless opportunities. It’s their fault my life has been so miserable these past few years. To live such a hard life as a transmigrator... I’m a complete disgrace to all transmigrators.’

’But even then, I never once thought about leaving those parents.’

’Why was that?’

’Because I had no way to protect myself. I had to rely on my parents.’

’No matter how useless they were, they were still two adults. Their presence served as a deterrent, at least, preventing me from being targeted at any moment.’

’But it would be a different story if I were alone. I’m just a five-year-old kid. If I were on my own, I’d be a sitting duck in the eyes of others. The moment I appeared, I’d likely be targeted and wouldn’t survive for long.’

’I’m too weak, and I’m a child. In the eyes of certain deviants, I’d be a prize catch.’

’Even if I eventually revealed that I was from the future and demonstrated my value to them, it would have been useless.’

’At best, they would have just locked me up like a prisoner, interrogating me daily for information about the future without ever treating me well.’

’My life would have been more miserable than that of most ordinary people.’

’I understood this situation better than anyone. I’d seen far too many tragic cases in my past life, so I never wanted to end up like that.’

’That’s why, all these years, no matter how dissatisfied I was with those parents, I never considered leaving them.’

’So why did I have that thought when I’m with Stella Sterling?’

’I feel completely safe with her, I don’t have to worry about food and drink, and the meals are excellent. I never lived this well, not even before the apocalypse.’

’Besides, she’s treating me pretty well right now. Why would I even think of leaving?’

’If I left, how would I survive on my own? My safety would be a huge issue, and even finding food would be a major problem. How would I feed myself?’

’Besides, there’s another benefit to staying with Stella Sterling.’

’With my parents, I always had to find ways to hide my unusual nature, constantly coming up with excuses to handle their questions.’

’But it’s different with Stella Sterling. She already knows all my secrets, so I don’t have to hide anything from her. I can say whatever I want without the slightest fear of my secrets being exposed.’

’Life like this is so much more comfortable than it was with my parents.’

’This woman may be terrifying, but after we laid everything out on the table and she told me what she needed from me, I felt much more at ease.’

’Aside from occasionally teasing me, she hasn’t done anything else to me.’

’Compared to the miserable fate I’d always envisioned—being imprisoned by someone else—this woman’s treatment of me is actually quite good.’

’I’d already made up my mind these past few days. I was just going to stick with this woman, keep my head down, and not cause any trouble.’

’After all, all I have to do is talk about the future, and in return, I get to live well.’

’I could even be considered lucky to have met someone like her.’

’But I don’t know why, in that moment, I still had that impulse.’

He realized it was the gun. It had given him the courage to think about breaking free from this woman. He’d thought that with a gun, he would finally have some security.

’But how could I have forgotten? Why would this woman dare to give me a gun? Was it because she trusted me?’

’No. We’ve only known each other for a short time, and I haven’t done anything to earn it. Why would she trust me?’

’She only dared to do it because she was confident in her own abilities. Even with me holding the gun, she was certain she could completely subdue me. She didn’t have to worry about the threat I posed, and that’s why she could hand it over so casually.’

At this thought, he broke out in a cold sweat. He grew restless on his feet and couldn’t even bring himself to meet Stella Sterling’s gaze, terrified of seeing the killing intent in her eyes.

’Even though it was just a fleeting thought, and I came to my senses before doing anything, knowing how petty this woman is... if she found out, then I...’

"It’s nothing," Stella Sterling said, shaking her head. She reined in her thoughts, her expression returning to normal.

Just as Andrew Shaw was sighing in relief, thankful that she probably hadn’t noticed and he had just been overthinking things, Stella Sterling’s next words made his heart leap into his throat: "You’re very lucky."

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